Life's like a roller coaster...

I thought it would be time to write about my exchange year so far and my feelings about it now, when I've been here six months and I've only four left. Four months sounds like a lot, but actually I start to have a little panic with time. Time goes really fast, and it never stops. It goes all the time faster and faster and I've still so many places to see, so many things to learn, so many people to meet and get to know better and so many questions waiting for answers...

My exchange year has been very different than I thought it would be. It has been better and it has been worse. It will always be part of me and I'll never regret that I made the decision to become an exchange student. In last six months I've learned a lot, I've changed, cryed, laughed, loved, missed my friends and family back home, I've danced, I've made mistakes, made friends...

I know it's gonna be aweful to leave this place and all these people here, but I also know that I'm gonna be happy to go home and have my own life back, even though this feels more my life here than my life back in Finland. I'm scared because I start to realize that this year is gonna end up someday, that this all is gonna be a memory before I even realize it myself. But I start to realize also that there's life after exchange year.

That's so right, I know it sounds silly to say that we grow during the exchange year and I'm not gonna say that I've grown but I definately have changed, maybe not much, but little by little, step by step. Because of the different culture, people and all that. But I believe it's only a good thing.

My life here is so different than my life in Finland that I've absolutely no idea, how I'm gonna put these two different lives together as a one. It's not the first time, I've this probleme and like it or not, I've still got two years School back in Finland so we'll see how I'll manage to do it..

My feelings have always been like a roller coaster, but I think during exchange there are even more the ups and downs. There are days you really think you can't handel it anymore, but there's also days when you feel like you live your dream. Every month there are more and more those days when you just stop and think ''I just couldn't think any place I would rather be than here''

That's gonna be interesting. I've really no idea how I'm gonna get all my stuff back home..

Where will I go from here?

Maybe not 110 % true, but not false either..

I know this has been in my blog already, but I think this is just one of the best ways to explain the exchange year.

I hope you'll all have a suprising and sunny spring wherever you are. This spring I'm gonna live in the moment (or at least try to do my best to achieve that), enjoy beeing young and free and try to smile as much as possible. :) Un grand bisou, la vie est belle!